Oh my little narcissist

Remember about my little girl's school concert? Well, I got the DVD and all the pictures from her event few days ago. And like every selfish mom does, I only looked for my girl's pictures :)

Some of the parents at school were complaining because they didn't get great pictures of their kids. Most of the pictures were blurry and it was taken from a distance, so no close up photo for any of us.

Anyway, we were all really excited to watch the DVD. And I wonder if this is what every family do. We fast forwarded to the part where my little girl was dancing, watched it, and then that's it. We didn't even watched the other part, beginning nor the end. Just the dancing part. Yeah, that's it. My daughter even asked me to rewind to the her dancing part again, so she can dance again at home. I thought it was so cute of her. I wanted to show her the other classes' performances, but she would go 'No, I don't want to see. I just want to see me.'

Hmm ... do I see a little narcissism going on here? :)

Pointless Actions

Okay, this will be my first posting that's not related with my family. I'm sure you've heard about the bombing incidents that happened recently in Jakarta. I was soooo upset when I heard the news the morning it happened. And the more I watched the news, the more upset I got. I feel sad for the innocent victims and feel really angry to the people responsible for it. Some says the people who did this were the people who were not satisfied with the president election. Some says they were the same terrorrist who did the bombing few years ago. Well, whoever they are, I think they are stupid. Their actions are pointless and brought nothing but grief and sadness, not to mention material lost and this country's instability.
I can't simply understand why they did this. What is the point, really? Until today, a week after it happened, I still feel mad everytime I remember this incident. I mean, I understand when people demonstrated for something to gain, like maybe for a raise or a better working hours, but to kill innocent people? What is it that they try to gain? A president re-election? I don't think the government would do that. Or maybe a place in Heaven (if this really is related to religion)? I don't think God will approve of such cruel actions. And how can the people who did this sleep at night, knowing they got blood on their hands? I just wish these people would realize that what they're doing is simply wrong and unjustified. And please ... just don't do it ever again.

Focus on the good things

I went out with one of my best friend few days ago (not the one with the sick mom). And as usual, we try to catch up on each other's story about what's going on with us and with our other friends. And we usually share a rather similar stories because we both are in financial difficulties right now. And we usually end up reminding each other to never give up or lose hope, and to try to look at the brighter side of things.

Anyway, one story led to another, she mentioned about a friend of a friend's story. She told me about these two persons who have been going out for years before they finally tied the knot. The husband is rich, so they have no financial problem whatsoever. They have good business, nice house, and the wife is pregnant right now. Nice, right? Well ... not so much. Because the husband is cheating on the wife. None of their friends dare to tell her because she's pregnant. (I certainly think that it's none of their business anyway)

So me and my best friend just sat there and talked a little about it. Don't get me wrong, we did not discuss about the cheating husband or the wife anymore. We only talked about the fact that everyone had his/her own problems. We might not have the money we wish we have right now, but we have husbands who we can trust completely. And I think that is much much better than having lots of money but a cheating husband.

We must constantly look for the good things in life, the brighter side of everything. It's hard and sometimes tiring. But that's life. There are ups and downs, happiness and sadness, times to laugh and times to cry. At the end of the day, we just have to take a deep breath, be thankful that we can still get through today, and hope that we will have a brighter tomorrow.

Difficult to Comfort a Friend

Do you ever been in a situation where you want to say so much but you can't find the right words? Yesterday, one of my best friends told me that her mom is dying of cancer. The doctors have given up on her. They've tried many alternatives medicines but none worked. We've been friends since we're in primary school, so I know her mom pretty well too.

My heart breaks when I heard the news. At that moment, I wanted to offer my friend words of comfort and encouragement, but my mind seemed to be blank. I really really didn't know what to say to her that can make her feel better. Maybe because deep down, I feel that whatever I say will not make her feel better. Because deep down, I was putting myself in her shoes. And I know that if I were really in her place, no one can make me feel better. I mean, think about it, to actually know that your mom is going to die ... it's just unbearable. And me? As her best friend, I thought I could at least say something meaningful, but I couldn't. I kept thinking, what am I going to tell her? That her mom is going to be okay? That everything will go away? Unless a miracle happens soon, I think it would be a stupid statement. I feel so helpless right now.

I haven't visited her mom until now. Not that I didn't want to. I wanted to visit her mom, but my friend said her mom would cry when people visited her. I really hate to upset her (the mom). And I also wonder ... what am I going to say to her if I really do go? I mean, what do we say to someone who knows she's going to leave the world so soon? This is more than uncomfortable situation. This is sad.

And it's sad for me too because her mom is just like my auntie. We've known each other for years already. Gosh, if I'm tearing up just thinking about this, how does my friend feel? She must be going through hell right now. So ... here's my prayer for her: May the Lord bless her and her mom with strength and courage to go through this situation. Whatever the outcome may be, just please be with her always. Send Your angels to keep her company so she'll never feel alone.